*These were previously written and saved*
Day 1 is never as hard as day 2. Day one, I still got to see him. I woke up, brushed my teeth, (yeah, that's right, didn't even change out of whatever I slept it.) and went straight on base to say goodbye. It was almost weird, like he was going to be right back.
I had to go to work, which was probably good because it kept me occupied all day. He called me when his plane landed in Huston, and I RAN back to the break room to take this one final call. It was harder than I thought, I think that's when it really started to set in for me. But I didn't cry. I had promised myself that I wouldn't cry, because he would be right back! And plus, I think this is the first relationship where I have never worried that any feelings would change. I know I'm his. I know he wants to make sure I'm taken care of. In fact, he called our friends and asked them to take me out that night, to help me relax and cheer up. Seriously.. what a good boyfriend! :)
So I went out, me and my friend Alie. Had a couple beers, just chilled, and took Flat Andrew out for his first few pictures.
Ok, let me explain. Have you ever heard of Flat Stanley? It started out as a children's book, about a boy who got ran over by a bus and was flattened. But then he realized that he could fit into an envelope and be mailed everywhere. Teachers all over have used this and had their kids color in Flat Stanley, and then they mail their FS all over and have him take pictures. The pictures come back with his adventures, and it's an opportunity to help kids with literacy. Amazing! (for a little more info, click
HERE, and for the project info click
HERE.)
I decided to use the idea, printed out a Flat Stanley, and colored him to make Flat Andrew! Now FA can continue his adventures, and I'll be able to send him the pictures while he's in basic! It gives me something to do, and gives him something to laugh about.
But now it's day two. I slept in a little too late, and now im just sort of bumming around. Part of me knows he is gone, but part of me is still hoping he will call me or text me. I've already started his first letter so that I can send it as soon as I get his address. One thing is for sure, at least I know where he is, and exactly what he is doing. Been there, done that.
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27 Oct 2009
One week down. There have been some up moments, and of course some down moments. But I can count one week out of the way.
I know the whole subject is kind of weird, but it's easier this time. I know where he is, and what he's doing. The annoying thing, is how often people either assume that A) you aren't going to stay together (ie: date casually), or B) that I'm going to be sad and mopey 100% of the time he is gone. I hate to break it to them, but yes we are staying 110% together, and life DOES happen even though he is gone. (Hence, Flat Andrew.) You have to think of it this way.. if I ever became a military wife again, (knock on wood.....) then is that how I would act every time he has to go away for training.. or even deployment?! Seriously. The best thing for a man who is serious about his military career, is knowing that the love of his life has it together at home. I can't think of a better way to support our troops.
Anyways... blah blah blah. Can't wait till I get that first letter.. I've been checking the mailbox every day! ! And the next time I hear his voice! That's going to be amazing! I'm excited for Christmas for a whole new set of reasons! :) Not to mention the St Louis Blues tickets we have..
53 days until graduation!
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2 Nov 2009
Still no letter, although the mail hasn't come yet today. I think the worse thing was all my dreams last night.
The first one was about finally getting a letter. And it was all I'd hoped it would be. A little about training, a lot about how much he loves me and misses me.
The second was a little strange.. He had come home for a couple weeks in the middle of training. Just some random break I guess.. of course that wouldn't happen in real life. But everything was normal- just being so totally smitten by him. It's so strange what your brain can concoct up.
There were other dreams, although I only remember snippets of them. Isn't it obvious that my heart aches for him? :) I hate how everyone at work asks about him between 3 and 5 times a day. So freaking obnoxious. And it's always the same answer right now.. I haven't heard from him. Trust me, I'll be a lot more bubbly when I do. Everyone is really warming up to Flat Andrew though! His Halloween costume was a hit! People are starting to ask for pictures with him! haha! :)
oh snap! I just thought of something! I should ask some of Drew's favorite regulars to take a picture with FA! HA! That would be freaking awesome! Ohhh.. and I should see if his family would take some with him at thanksgiving! Oh man.. That would be AWESOME! I bet he would LOVE that! Oh man... I'm super excited now..
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I have to edit even today's post. I was waiting for the mail, and about peed in my pants when I saw a letter for me from Drew. I finally got the thing open, only to realize it was just graduation weekend info. Part of me is totally happy because he sent it to me when it looks like it's for family, but I'm a little confused because he said he doesn't really want me to waste my money to come, when he should be coming right home after that. Don't quite know what to think.
If you have know idea what this is.. You can check it out HERE. Or you can trust me.. that it's a digital book. That holds up to 1,500 books. You can download them anywhere. You can get magazines and newspapers on it. Book prices are dramatically lower than going to Barnes and Noble. (I try to avoid that place.. if not, I walk out with books. It's horrible for my checking account.) It's super light.. very friendly for someone who moves as much as I do.
